Originally Posted May 6, 2008

My life has been a saga of gaining and losing...unfortunately, more gaining that losing! I was born big (10lbs, 5.5 oz!) and my mother pretty much put me on a diet right away. You know the wisdom that you shouldn't put kids on diets so that they won't develop complexes? Well, I'm the cautionary tale behind it. Weight and appearance is VERY important to my mother--which is strange since from the time I was born until recently, she was quite overweight. In fact, her weight loss was not due to any healthy habits or dieting--no, she had a very, very bad case of colitis. While that must have just been horrible, it does appear to be quite a diet.

Oh, and happiness does not make you thin. Since I met my husband (which was October 2006--we were married in September 2007), I've gained almost 40 pounds. And I was overweight when we met! Anyhow, here I am--I tipped the scales at 260 this morning. Beautiful.

On the other side of things, we are trying to conceive. I know the wisdom is to lose weight first, but I'm 34 and really don't want to wait! We did get pregnant sort of by surprise in January, but miscarried in March (the doctor swears that it had nothing to do with my weight). So, we're just starting the whole TTC thing now.

I started Weight Watchers in August 2000 and lost 45 pounds right off the bat. Then I gained that back plus 22 pounds, putting me to that wonderful number I saw on the scale this morning. Obviously, I quit WW when I got pregnant and after the miscarriage, I decided to give calories in/calories out a try on SparkPeople. That worked a little bit...I think I'm going to have to alternate between calories and points to avoid burnout. This morning I signed up for WW online.

This is the first time I've done that, so let's see how it goes!